Developments

I love it when you write something and then stumble across it like an acquaintance you forgot you met.
This week is going to be incredibly rewarding I think. the In Print festival is this week at Ball State, and three newly published authors are coming to discuss their work and talk about being published. All of their work is incredible, as well as inspiring, and I look forward to having the oppurtunity of hearing them read.
(Dave Griffith: A Good War is Hard to Find-go read it.)
Mini road trip during the day with my good friend Amanda to Indy on Friday. We're going to go hang out with her mom and then look at H&M's new spring line. We're both making mixes for the ride there and back because we're nerds like that. (Nerds=synonymous with amazing.) I'm playing a house show that night, and then on Saturday I get to see Cari and Rache for the first time in God knows how long for Cari's wedding shower.
It would be one kind of excitement to see them both individually. Cari moved to New Orleans last year, and then Rache is in Tallahassee (and soon LA-- because she got into GRAD SCHOOL AT USC! That's my best friend), so I don't get to see them very often. In fact, I haven't seen Cari since Rache's goodbye party in August, and that was only for twenty minutes. Needless to say, I am jubilative.
Saturday night Rodeo Ruby Love (www.myspace.com/rodeorubylove) is playing at the Village Green. They're amazing people, and amazing musicians. I'm very excited to spend time with them.
So yes, la vive est bella.

Here are the peices I rediscovered.


DEVELOPMENTS (written 2/15/07 I believe)

You should paint all night
I could call you Van Gogh
You could paint me the stars
People wouldn't understand it at first
The beauty in the way you see things.

I should write this all down
You could call me Neruda
As I cast my nets into your skies
People wouldn't understand it at first
The meaning in my metaphors

You could call me yours
We could change the world with the way we see things
And calling eachother names.


SWING

I feel like swinging
To have the stars beneath my feet
To feel the air rush at me, burning

worthy of note

I just realized I not only get to see my parents in a few days. ...
I get to see my cat.

This Waltz Will Wear Us Down

So, spring break is in a few days. Hurrah!
I have this wonderfully imposing reading list that I intend to conquer over the course of the next week. My spring break will consist of working, sleeping, voracious reading, hanging out with Mom, and watching bad kung-fu movies with my Dad.
I can't contain my excitement to see them, it's been too long. I hate that I only see them every few months.

Other good news is I heard back from Secretly Canadian yesterday about my internship. It's good to know that I'm going to get to follow through with my goals. I've wanted to intern for them for a long time now, and I've worked really hard to make sure that happens.

I'm recording my solo stuff this weekend with my friend Dan. He's a music engineering major, and hopefully very good at what he does. Anyway, the song is one of my newest, and I like it.
Here, I'll share lyrics. :

This Waltz Will Wear Us Down

I never was the child for building castles,
To watch them wash away seemed so demeaning
Running back and forth from sea to mother
Saving all the shells, their remnants priceless
There are things to be salvaged here.

Gave up for years
Something hiding,
Harbored in me
Salvage, Scattered
Building again
Building Slowly
Victim of my own making
I know the feeling
of the beating tide
There are things to be salvaged here.

Porous bones cause for brittle beginnings
It seems my patience is wearing thin
You ask me of my expectations
Simple allegiance is all I'm asking for here
There are things to be salvaged, here.

Did sands of time erode at your bones?
Wearing at you,
Wearing slowly?
He wore me down,
Swallowed me whole
I know the feeling
Of the beating tide
There are things to be salvaged here.


And post a pretty picture.



P.S: Give me a year, I'm going back to Hawaii.

Frustration.

I'm writing-ish a paper right now, it's not that bad it's just boring.

My week should have felt alot worse than it did, because alot of not-so-fun things happened. However! all of these circumstances made me reevaluate what I want and what is really important to me.
Change is underway.
Some major changes, some minor.
And I've ammended to be a lot less passive when it comes to life, and the things that I love.
I've also decided to stop rewarding people who haven't done anything for me. I can't think of a way to word this delicately enough, without getting into gory specifics. Specifics don't matter, this resolution is the result of many different specific circumstances. In a positive light, this week has made me realize how many amazing people I have in my life.
Also, developing friendships make me really happy. I hung out with Rebecca and Julie this weekend, and they are both so refreshing.

I had a nightmare with some old haunts last night though, which caused me to wake up feeling slightly unrested.

Rebecca and I have ammended to bring back sashes being tied around the head, audrey hepburn style. When we watched Breakfast at Tiffany's this weekend I really comprehended it at the level I had always wanted to, and known I could, but never had before. Its a really amazing movie. Tomorrow I plan to teach myself Moon River so I can cover it.

Fantastical!