witnessing.

I just witnessed a pivotal moment in a girl's life.
She was downstairs in the Atrium making small talk with a girl behind the counter in the Barnes and Noble cafe, asking about the school. This is where she's coming.
I remember my freshmen orientation and thinking that college felt alot like summer camp at that point, and hating it. My mom and I lied to come home early.
When I sat down in my first class I felt like I ruled the school, and moved because I was suspect that the upper classmen in front of me would undoubtedly copy off of me. I felt like a different breed.
I never thought I would actually be living the life that I had daydreamed of since highschool. That I would be making something of my music, skipping classes with professor's permission so that I could go to play shows in Bloomington.
That I would cut out some of the most devastating characters in my life, who lived under the guises of my closest and dearest friends. Through that learning the value of real friendship, and meeting the people who would reinforce my true character, the people who I wake up thinking of, and looking forward to. (Sarah, Stevi, Puckett, Justin, Newg, Sarah v. 2.0, Ali, Ashley, etc. etc. etc.)
Content isn't one of those words that was ever really synonymous with my life.
But sitting down and writing, or talking, or walking, or any verb that I can think of, I find that I am really proud of myself. I know that there's so much more beauty to come, but I like where I'm at right now.
So much to look forward to.

Ok, now someone go light a candle and sing some folk songs about rainbows and harmony.

conversation with newg

ME: stupid question
CHRIS: (raise of eyebrow)
ME: when you’re typing oohed is it o-o-h-e-d or o-o-‘-d?
CHRIS: (Contemplative face)
There’s no ‘h’ in ‘ood” other wise it’s oohed.
ME:Really?
CHRIS: Really.
ME: You sure?
CHRIS: Yeah.
ME: huh…….but still is there an apostrophe in that?”

Dave Sedaris

he's gotten alot better, as was said in class, this book is good because it's focused, not random.
(Dave Eggers always has my heart though.)
Hearing Sedaris in class did change the way i read the book though. His voice was alot less lethargic and nasel- based in my head. So that definitely put a damper on the reading occasion for me.

Discovering the deeper meaning of Hijara to me today was like a goldmine. I love unearthing deeper meanings behind things like that, it means alot to me. I really want to assume that Sedaris took it to the deepest level on that, that he was fully aware of the fact that Hijara was Mohammed's fleeing of his homeland after being enlightened in Mecca, leaving behind everything that he had known with just his first wife and some followers and family, just so that they wouldn't be persecuted.
That's one of the most sacred Islamic stories. It's the reason that they have to visit Mecca in their life time.

He had to have known in order to sight that, correct.

Plus, you know a story has deeper meaning when a Joni Mitchell song is involved.

I guess the thing that I enjoy most about Sedaris's writing is that he makes us connect the dots. you know?
more on this later.

the Major Deal

So.
It's of my opinion that you should be able to invest passion into all of your work, or you shouldn't be doing it.
Therefore, the classes that you're majoring in should probably be your favorite classes right?
It's not that I don't like audio production, I love protools etc. etc... but we're not learning what I want to do with it. So far we've recorded outdoor noises, radio spots, and now more indoor noises. I can only record a flushing toilet so many times. I want to produce music, and that's not what the focus is in telecommunications it seems. Everyone around me wants to move to LA and make movies.

I don't want to do that at all.
I mean, not even close.
So I don't really identify with anyone in my classes because none of them want to do what I do. And isn't that the point of a major?

On another note, I've fallen in love with my english minor, but it's too late to major in it if I want to graduate anytime soon.
And I could do my other minor, comm studies... that's feasable.
Those are all of the classes I love, to be quite honest. And I'm better at them too.

what to do.
and what's with the shame of a general studies major?
I could do that and graduate with four minors in four years.
is that so bad?